Initially, I began writing this post about finances, then I went deeper internally and saw what was really going on. So, here goes round two.
This adventure of being unrestricted is both exciting and terrifying. My initial fear is no one will want to listen to what I have to say or purchase what I write.
Going deeper however, I discovered that money is not my problem or what is holding me back. My fears about income is what I would tell people in casual conversation. My real concern is: am I good enough?
Do I believe I can really do this? Living restricted in tradition, the status quo and doing what I’m “supposed to” do is safe and in that, there is security. But after reading ‘The Art of Non-Conformity” by Chris Guillebeau and going deeper within, I find that my security is not in getting a regular paycheck or relying on someone else.
My security is in God almighty and my own competence. So really, do I trust God and do I trust myself? Yeah, that definitely doesn’t come up in casual conversation.
You: Hey Lane, how are you?
Me: I’m having a hard time believing in myself and wondering if I’m a good enough writer for people to take me seriously.
I believe we are all born with unique talents and gifts. We are born with something to offer the world that no one else can. We are born with everything we need to contribute to the world and help each other.
I think what happens is the environment we grow up in either nurtures or discourages those gifts. Little children believe they can do or be anything. Somewhere along the way, we either keep believing or we stop and start existing.
We can believe again. We can absolutely believe in God, in other people, and in ourselves. That belief can then wash across the world like a glorious tidal wave of awesome. So what about you? What do you think is holding you back?
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