The cliffhanger from last month was the condition of “Mahna Mahna” Lane a.k.a, our baby girl, premiering this fall. In April, when we saw our perinatologist, Dr. Labor Day (for those of you who are new, his last name is a major holiday, so I dubbed him Dr. Labor Day for privacy purposes), he gave us the news that Mahna Mahna had a soft marker which could indicate Downs Syndrome.
Her head to leg bone growth ratio was inconsistent, which set off alarms for Dr. Labor Day. He suggested we come back in June to have her bones rechecked via ultrasound to monitor her growth. Boo and I both were beyond worried and concerned. We wrestled with it, cried with it, and concluded we would love this child no matter what. We were offered an amniocentesis to determine if Mahna Mahna was at risk. We declined, opting to wait until our June appointment to have her rechecked.
The first weekend in May, Boo and I celebrated our 1 year anniversary. We returned to the place we were married and strolled the memory trails. It was surreal, a one year anniversary. 365 days of married life. Lessons learned, laughs given and received, and I’m one year of being a better man thanks to Boo.
May was a month of self realizations. I read: “The War of Art” by Steven Pressfield, “Purple Cow” by Seth Godin, “Crush It!” by Gary Vaynerchuk, and I finished “Escape From Cubicle Nation” by Pamela Slim. I’m learning so much, it is unreal. (None of these are affiliate links.) I’m considering adding a Review section on the sidebar since talking about how great each of these books are would be a post in and of itself. These authors taught me more about myself than about business, which wasn’t something I was expecting and I think what impacted me the most. I highly recommend all of these books.
After reading these authors and a lot of reflection, I’ve discovered something. The absolute last thing I want is for this website to be about me. This can not be Jermaine’s online journal. Nope, lets’s just shut it down and call it a day if it becomes that. This is about you, what you want to read, and how I can help.
Sure, I’ll share stories about the things I’ve learned through tragedy and triumph. However, I realized that I was writing how I was supposed to write on a blog. The epiphany that I was writing not as myself but as other writers came from my wife herself. She said, in the kindest way possible, “I’ve noticed the comments you leave on other people’s blogs are deeper than your posts.” No, I didn’t get upset. No really, I didn’t. I am not just spankin’ saying that, I appreciated her honesty.
The deepest post I wrote was this one, which was a mixture of personal experience and something that I hoped would be of help to you or someone you know. It resonated with a lot of readers, and I’m grateful for the positive feedback. I’m re-evaluating and have some things up my sleeves (I have really long arms, so good stuff is coming).
I’m learning this is a process, which I’ll mostly talk about here in the monthly report. I feel like I’m buffering, and I’m at 62% as far as life unrestricted is concerned. I know where I want to go, it’s the getting there that is the lesson.
If you are new here this month, thank you so much for coming by. If you are a regular reader, thank you for returning. I’m grateful for all of you. May peace be with you, may peace be multiplied.
[photo by Boo, on the deck at King’s Family Vineyards in Crozet, Virginia]